I'm having one of those days when I can't explain what exactly is going through my mind. Random thoughts rushing through like a bullet train that I'm missing at every station. I tried studying, working, even meditating. No luck. My "chattering monkey" (a term used in meditation to describe the distracting thoughts) wouldn't stop muttering.
How long will it take to get better? What are the things I'm missing out on and would like to start doing once I regain my strength and recover fully from my infection... How people around me have been so loving and helpful in getting me back on my feet, how hard it must have been for them...yet they have been wonderfully kind.
Soon it led me to think about people who are beyond "sick", elderly people, coma and cancer patients. There are zillion diseases now, I have seen my grandpa battle through a life threatening one. Those who are paralyzed or are too weak to move around, what must be going through their minds? How do they battle for life each day...the shock of being diagnosed with a disease, running for check ups, side effects of medications, draining treatments and the pressure of finances. Millions of disturbing thoughts gnawing at you are bound to send you into depression.
It's not easy being sick, you are lucky if you have someone helping you through your illness. If not, then the patient has to worry about people who are getting "troubled" by their illness too. I have heard of people who find it too hard to take care of their family member at such times, too frustrating and irritating for them, it seems. It is challenging to look after a patient, no doubt. Living through your normal routine and doing twice the work for the other person is not a small task. People who help others through their ailments day in and day out are truly angels.
It is a blessing to have loving and gentle people who understand how much you need them and their support. Because the positive motivation of getting well actually comes from the people you are with, family, friends or doctors/nurses, they somehow make you want to get well. Their faith and labor in getting you back on your feet can do wonders, it works even better than medicines at times.
My terrible idea today: If you are too depressed, think about people who are terminally ill and those who are diligently trying to save them. If these people can have true fighting spirit during such unbearable circumstances why can't we? Bole toh, apne aap ko get well soon bolne ka!
How long will it take to get better? What are the things I'm missing out on and would like to start doing once I regain my strength and recover fully from my infection... How people around me have been so loving and helpful in getting me back on my feet, how hard it must have been for them...yet they have been wonderfully kind.
Soon it led me to think about people who are beyond "sick", elderly people, coma and cancer patients. There are zillion diseases now, I have seen my grandpa battle through a life threatening one. Those who are paralyzed or are too weak to move around, what must be going through their minds? How do they battle for life each day...the shock of being diagnosed with a disease, running for check ups, side effects of medications, draining treatments and the pressure of finances. Millions of disturbing thoughts gnawing at you are bound to send you into depression.
It's not easy being sick, you are lucky if you have someone helping you through your illness. If not, then the patient has to worry about people who are getting "troubled" by their illness too. I have heard of people who find it too hard to take care of their family member at such times, too frustrating and irritating for them, it seems. It is challenging to look after a patient, no doubt. Living through your normal routine and doing twice the work for the other person is not a small task. People who help others through their ailments day in and day out are truly angels.
It is a blessing to have loving and gentle people who understand how much you need them and their support. Because the positive motivation of getting well actually comes from the people you are with, family, friends or doctors/nurses, they somehow make you want to get well. Their faith and labor in getting you back on your feet can do wonders, it works even better than medicines at times.
My terrible idea today: If you are too depressed, think about people who are terminally ill and those who are diligently trying to save them. If these people can have true fighting spirit during such unbearable circumstances why can't we? Bole toh, apne aap ko get well soon bolne ka!
